I was just watching some clips from the High School American Football film Friday Night Lights, and everyone in the comments was talking about how much they wish they could go back to those years. It seemed life changing. Grown men were explaining how the movie made them legit cry.
In my adolescence, I just wanted to be worthless and play videogames. (I was very depressed.) So sports was of very little interest to be, aside from a recreational pass time with some bros. I was a fairly naturally inclined athlete, especially relative my physical fitness.
My dad always told me how much I would regret not playing hockey or football and stuff. He turned out to be right. I wish he just forced me into it as a kid, but he always gave me the choice. Oh well, i dont blame him so much.
I feel like as a man a piece of me is missing, I never got the camaraderie or that feeling of glory in my life that comes with competitive sports with a team. I have no medals to show for, or no fond of memories of close passionate games, or no group of men who i conquered with.
Im 25 now, and it still bothers the shit out of me.
I am physical now though, I lift weights and try to push the numbers in the gym. Getting good results, but even when i hit a 500lb squat.. i just dont think it could compare to the feeling of going at it hard as fuck with your boys in the last quarter giving it all you got. Idk, am i being too sentimental?
(Not interested in joining adult male sports, 1: it’s very injury prone, especially in conjunction with my training program. 2: It would have to be recreational, because obviously im not good enough to play high level, which is where the passion would be. I dont think it’s worth it. Am i wrong? )
TLDR: I feel like crap I never played sport in my adolescence, dad said i’d regret it and he was right. Any ideas how I can psychologically overcome this deep seeded regret?